3.

FreeWill Or whatever….

God is complete. 

Independent

Lacking nothing and perfectly balanced.

The qualities

Beauty

Fame

Wealth

Wisdom/Intelligence

Strength

Renunciation

Are absolute in The Absolute.

And us...

Being little parts of that Supreme (not the brand)

Are unbalanced.

We may get a good portion of one or some (of those qualities) and less of others. 

As an artist, I struggle with the imbalance. 

Being a little creator with such limited capabilities, and heavily affected by the ego...

I feel the need to be recognized.

God creates everything and then says “it’s all yours, do what you want”

I create anything and WILL NOT accept the idea that you don’t love it.

Checking back for your likes.

Your comments. 

Arguing with you about your taste (or lack thereof) in the comment sections.

Maybe it’s because you’re re-enforcing my insecurities.

I know it’s not ‘me’ 

I know it comes from a greater place & I am just a conduit. 

That’s already humbling enough, I don’t need you to say it...

*sigh*

Aight man I get it.  I shouldn’t care. 

But I don’t got that kind of renunciation.

I guess that’s not fair to you though is it?

Whatever man...

You have your free will. 

Do what you want.

I’mma work on me. 

2.

I remember a time when I was fortunate enough to be trapped under a car, begging to see “just another day!”.
I had so much I needed to do. So much I needed to say.

Somehow,
this morning,
when I was asked how I was doing,
I had the nerve to say
”Eh Just another day.”.

Not in a grateful way.

There is a lot of nerve here.
Mad at the rain, as if it doesn’t sustain us.
Mad at a job, as if it doesn’t keep food coming in.

Don’t be fooled by the “We are allowed to want more!” voices.
Whether they are right or not, that attitude keeps us from truly respecting what we have.

I can pretend that I didn’t didn’t BEG for this day, but I would only be cheating myself.

1.

Meditations.

To focus the mind.  On a thought, or an idea.

The mind is a lot like a child, in that it needs to be occupied and guided at all times. 

Most commonly, we are on autopilot, which allows for so many people, entities & things to take advantage of that state to manipulate our consciousness. 

In an attempt to guide the mind toward moods of gratitude, humility and Love, I’m writing and sharing some of the things that help me to better understand the lessons I am being blessed with during this human experience. 

I meditate in the mornings (as much as I can) so that I start my day in a way that works for the good of my mental well being. 

Understanding that words have power has been a huge benefit to me. 

The words of a loved one can have such a profound effect on us, as can the words of those that do not have our best interest in mind. 

We have been conditioned to think that words can never hurt us.

But that is not true. 

The way that our consciousness is deeply affected by words is evident by our entire way of life.  We elect people to run our governments on words alone, whether they reflect their actions or not. 

I am really trying to share things that work for me. 

When I see someone getting the “success” I think is mine. 

When I see someone I believe to be living my dream.

When I am overwhelmed and inundated with base level energy.

When the ‘news‘ attempts to start my day in the way IT wants to. 

These are the things I use to focus, and refocus my mind. 

I think it is equally important to focus our mind, intentions and consciousness at night before bed as well, but that may be a different series. 

So I hope it helps a bit, I am sure we will evolve together.